Friday, February 27, 2009

need to recharge

It's the 27th! It's got to be a good day, it's my lucky number.

I think my impatience with my class last night was more a result of my feeling burnt from two semesters in a row. Really I'm just whining for no legitimate reason, I have had students in the past who get up at 4 or 5, work until 6 and then go to class from 7 to 9. This same student I use as an example here is the one who cooked an amazing meat and vegetable dish for the graduation party one night. Where does she find the time? The energy? And I'm complaining?

Sometimes I forget just how hard it is to understand another language. Spanish has been very tough for me, I know English is tough for them. I just have to try to put myself in check before class until the end of the semester. It's not their fault I'm tired, they still deserve the best teacher possible. Shake it off Kippy!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

during class

Teaching really does allow for constant enlightenment.
Sometimes I think of the coolest shit when I'm teaching, things I can't really devise in my own head because it's normally clouded with everything all at once.
Yesterday I got into a discussion with my ESL class about the 2nd amendment. After we started discussing people's fascination with guns and violence I thought about the reasoning behind this; movies, cartoons, video games. I decided then and there while teaching that it's best to blame society. You can't blame one single person or group for the way a society thinks, there are too many moving parts that go into it. You can't blame the kids, can't blame the parents. If we lived in a country where that type of thing was not valued then it would be more likely that people would be less inclined to use violence as a means to an end.
(I'll quote Ron Soloman here, that douche-)
Not a sermon, just a thought.

mind control

I recently read that thinking happens to you, it's not always something you do.
Very true.
I wish I could come up with a way to control my thoughts, it's a lot harder than monks and cult leaders make it look.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

no mistakes

This is a promise to myself that I will do my best to avoid sociopaths in the future. All I hope is that I'm not a magnet for them.
But of course I say that and in a few months I will be right back in the same position again. Isn't that always how it works? We tend to repeat our mistakes. Do they have to be mistakes though? If they help us grow and eventually make us a better person, than we can just call it an experience.
To me a mistake is when you are writing an e-mail for work to the head of a major company and you type in the greeting "Dear afternoon" instead of "Good afternoon." It's too late! I already sent the e-mail! God DAMMIT!!
That's a mistake.
A split-second screw-up.
Also a true story of mine.
I digress.
Relationships, no matter how terrible or how fucked up, I think, should always be thought of as experiences, not mistakes. Some are good, some are bad. But hopefully we learned something from it that will make us or the other person hurt less the next time around.

same old shit

Maybe it's because I'm not in a place of any power, but why are people always so scared to take any risks at all? (This all coming from a scaredy-cat)

We should change these pictures.
No we should keep them the same.
But I think it would look better if we had one picture on each side to make it more cohesive.
Careful! You're making waves, I think people are looking at us.
No they're not, I'm just making a suggestio-
Shh! Lower your voice!
I'm just above a whisper right now.
I think you've said enough, we're keeping it as it always has been. *glares then leaves, offended*

I'm exaggerating, yes. But just barely. We're talking about pictures for a fact sheet, not weapons of mass destruction. Christ!!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

like telephone

You write a letter, create some sort of document which must be sent to what seems like a hundred different people. Each person normally feels the need to put their fingerprint on it and change something just to say they did. Once it comes back to you the message has nothing to do with how you began.
That one little sentence you added will not likely make a damn bit of difference.
Maybe I'm too laissez-faire but I think if we let things be a little more often they would have room to improve on their own.